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Feelings


Whenever I got time from busy life I travelled with my child and other friends and family. Traveling healed my heart a lot , it puts me into a whole new paradigm and it is so easy to be close to my soul amongst the smell of earth, chirping of birds, sound of falling leaves. I  collected magnets , pictures and memories. I often kept thinking about you wishing you were there walking beside me , sometimes pretended talking to you. Your soul must have been gushing through the woods then that I felt a sense of warmth saying :I am here. I have unknowingly felt love in the orange red yellow leaves many times while I passed by , the sight of a maple leaf made my heart melt and I never knew why.




But I completely kept myself restrained from peeping into your social life , I had friends who were in connect with you but I never asked them about you. I never wanted to hear about certain things , weaving a tale with you where I left you, the way you were standing there.

Nowadays it is so obvious for people to know about others even when they do not want to. I wanted to be at one corner ; there were so many reasons I had now to keep you away but the most that surfaced was the guilt of a betrayal ( I was betrayed so much as were you) , after years passing by started to feel we both loved and lacked maturity to elevate it. We both failed somewhere, isnt it? And it was apparent that I was the only fool thinking about these things even after years.

Flying high on the sky or racing on the ground
Raised my senses put me astound
The high of the mountains or low of the seas
Felt every bit of the earth with its westerly breeze
When leaves got colored with vibrant paints
Maple is where I found love once again.
But then also felt a sheer pain within
Cause you must have found your care in another being
I could only love you from a distance for what we did
Both tale tells of betrayal indeed.
Kept myself away from you knowing you are doing fine
You will do wonders in this world with your shine.
What is the point of talking to you once more
Raising my senses that have been put under gravestone.



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