A Matter of Time

Feelings Whenever I got time from busy life I travelled with my child and other friends and family. Traveling healed my heart a lot , it puts me into a whole new paradigm and it is so easy to be close to my soul amongst the smell of earth, chirping of birds, sound of falling leaves. I  collected magnets , pictures and memories. I often kept thinking about you wishing you were there walking beside me , sometimes pretended talking to you. Your soul must have been gushing through the woods then that I felt a sense of warmth saying :I am here. I have unknowingly felt love in the orange red yellow leaves many times while I passed by , the sight of a maple leaf made my heart melt and I never knew why. But I completely kept myself restrained from peeping into your social life , I had friends who were in connect with you but I never asked them about you. I never wanted to hear about certain things , weaving a tale with you where I left you, the way you were standing there...

Distances After I travelled far from my country , I wanted to mingle with the outer world, see new places , meet new people , away from the nuisances I have gone through. This put me through a lot of changes and my perspectives of the world changed immensely. I forgot a lot of past pain, my heart melted with the breathtaking views of nature and as I came close to the mountains I felt a sense of satisfaction. That time it did not matter much to me with whom I travelled , friends or family or acquaintances - the nature GOD was pulling me through. I tried to be busy as much concentrating on career , avoiding lone times which reminded me that I lost you. Inspite of having to live in a different busy world, your memories did not fade away completely and after sometime , a new kind of thought surfaced - you being with some one else ,  holding someone close completely being oblivious of my existence in your life. That were times which pricked me and told what a mistake I have done ,...