A Matter of Time

Life is a journey throughout and I am not sure if there is anything called an absolute end. I perceived you at one point of life and you have shown up time and time again but after so many years its still a surprise where we meet again. I have laughed with you , cried for you , hated you and loved you for so long , it just feels sometimes surreal that even such bond exists between us. We never talked on this but I am anxious to look into your eyes and see myself. I have read romanticism, revenge, hatred, injustice , battle but I have no idea under which genre we should fall. Or Am I trying to make our story like novels? I am not. All I want right now is to go and meet you , know about you , spend sometime with you , its being years we have looked into each other. I will not come your way if someone else comes in between but your glance might feel my senses for once. I do not want to stand on your way if you choose to move to the other side but your passing by might fill me with more...

To put one's love to test is an integral part of a relationship. We all have done this at times where we wanted to be away just to see that faded expression or the pain in the words from the loved person only to get back to him with valor. We have connected for days , we have spent hours messaging but not sure of the relation that exists. One more important thing to keep a relationship healthy is to try out all the angles of it but I realized all of a sudden ( not sure whether you did too) that I cannot go and meet or call you anytime at will , you are still at a long distance. You are that close to me that I can share any thoughts with you but only restricted by time and place. I still do not have much idea on what you are thinking of me at this point. With the kind of work we both do , we cut down the connect to some extent only to find out what our next step would be. Disconnect Loved and respected you from a distance Never knowing what a fate I am weaving Unknowingl...

I have always been spontaneous and who else knows this better than you. But those spontaneity died for years , never knew it would come up suddenly in a flash and what I will do is something that will either make me proud or regret forever. These days I thought of you intermittently , your old thoughts added some flavour to my life I do not know why. One day while awake late night and writing my blog , I was thinking of what will happen if I suddenly call you up. Will the world be on fire? or it might lead to something better I have never imagined ? On a hit of a moment , I mailed you just a well wishing thought. There was a faded reply on that and I mostly regretted that I could have known you the way you were earlier and felt happy.  You were never easy to go away from my mind ; I changed places and got to travel which kept me a tad busy. They say when two people think about each other deeply, there is a bond that gets created in the cosmos and a power in the sky that tries to p...

Peep From here and there I kept getting words about you but knew I was in no way coming your way for I felt a guilt inside ; I have knowingly betrayed your trust of love by trying to be with someone though you never felt or trusted that way ever. Inside my heart my love for you had stayed the way it was and a pinch of your name still used to shake me.  On the other hand my life was was not going smooth again , those petty issues , those harsh words those stress was not getting me somewhere. I still managed to compose myself enough and get along with trust in God who will get me all the happiness at the end. Seeing my child in front , I had to be strong. One day which was such bad day, I completely started feeling I am losing everything in life. I was crying at the corner of my room middle of the night , why cannot I forget you and if I do not then why cannot you come in front? At times like this I have hated you the most , I wished I had loved someone else , but to my fate ...